Stockholm Syndrome

Stockholm Syndrome- A state of mind that affects a person who is kidnapped, held against their will, or in a hostage situation for an extended period of time. Being allowed to live after the initial shock of a kidnapping/hostage situation/etc the victim may feel an intense sense of gratitude and often uses this as a reason to believe their captor is a good person. Their captor uses continued fear and abuse to brainwash the victim into believing any family or friends they have are not looking for them or do not care about them causing the victim to transfer those bonds of trust and affection from their family and friends to their captor out of desperation. As a result, those with Stockholm Syndrome may not think clearly when given chances of escape or retaliation against their captors and will often remain with them willingly until helped by an outside force.
Well, in a nut shell. This is totally in my own words because I’m too lazy to look on the internet for a more in-depth description of it. >_> But it is accurate!

I think I hate women. I find myself loving the pictures I draw like this more than any others. Putting my females (or I guess, feminized in this case?) in compromising situations is pretty much the most fun I can have in writing or roleplaying. It’s a little disturbing. Maybe it’s more because I’m terrified of finding myself in a situation like this. Being raped, kidnapped, held against my will, in general losing control over myself in some way, whether physically or mentally, is pretty much among my top 3 ultimate fears. (Dying of a debilitating illness and death via a natural disaster/space debris are the other two.) So I use art, and the placing of characters in horrible situations to confront these fears. Or something. STUPID PSYCHOLOGY, EFF YOU.

So, this is pretty much the best piece I’ve drawn to date, as far as I’m concerned. Everything came out completely as I wanted, the look on El’s face, the body language, GRR ALL OF IT. The background is made of laze but I can live with that because it’s still pretty cool looking. xD If it’s too dark, let me know and I’ll get a lighter version mocked up for you guys. These are the kind of pictures of love because of how vague it really is. You don’t HONESTLY know what’s going to happen next. Cadaver (white prawn) could just be reinforcing his dominance by scaring the shit out of El, and it’s working. Or he could be setting up for rapetiem, I DON’T KNOW. I really like that I can make my own ending to this story, multiple endings even. That is just jfdlfjdskl THE BEST THING EVER, far more exciting to me! Which is why you don’t see me drawing porn. xB LOL

Elanor made a big mistake coming on Cadaver’s land, and then out of her intense terror of the general situation she was in (outnumbered and pretty much as the mercy of Cadaver) she offered to help him gain weapons parts from her job in exchange for her life. Of course, that’s a pretty damn good offer, win-win for Cadaver because now he’s got complete control over El. He’s basically made her a member of his gang and she’s forbidden to leave, save for her job, she’s become his captive and in a way willingly. She now basically lives her worst fear every day, unable to decide for herself anything about her life. Yet despite all this over time with the continued isolation and only having meaningful interactions with Cadaver she’s slowly fallen prey to Stockholm Syndrome. Even though he sometimes gives her a smack if she’s out of line as far as she’s aware from experience he’s the closest thing she’s had to friend.

Which leads us to this picture. She’s terrified of him but can’t help but love him at the same time, he’s all she has. So if, at a later date, he ever made a pass at her she may deep down resist and not want it but externally would feel like she couldn’t rightfully say no. You can see the conflict on her face, I hope. Cadaver’s face confuses me… I think that it’s supposed to though. I’m sure he doesn’t hate her but he also doesn’t truly love her, it’s more like this is motivated by simple physical attraction and as a result he also has a mix of emotions that I’m having trouble explaining... BUT I GUESS, if I succeeded, I don’t need to explain it to ya’ll. It should be unspoken!

More and more I find myself thinking that El in the personification of my inner fear, she acts like I think I might if I was her. It’s starting to scare me. WHICH ONE OF US IT REAL?? Am I really the creator or does she really exist in some way?!
I.
DON’T.
KNOW.
jfdsklfjdsal!!


TAIN'T MATURE CUZ NOTHIN'S HAPPN'IN.
But omggg, this roleplay is so hot.
I CAN'T GET ENUFF
OF YOU BAAAABEEEEEEH
DD:


Elanor is mine
Cadaver is the brain bebe of
And District 9 is MISTAH BLOMKAMP’S, BIATCH